Over the last 24 hours, I declined an invitation to a brainstorming activity for an event launch, a focus group discussion on a youth outreach programme, and to join as members of the first batch of the national youth corp programme. I think the various initiatives have their own plus points and in a way it would be exciting to be able to join them, but I also think I need to be more focus right now. If I say I need to take a break, then I should take steps to do that.
I was 10 minutes late for class today. I think this is the 7th week already, and the last three weeks when I had to go to the school every Mondays and Tuesdays, I find myself taking a cab at the last stretch. It’s a bus, three trains, and a bus ride (or cab) each way. The travelling is a bit troublesome in that sense. And I still can’t accept the fact that I need more than an hour to get there.
One of the things we recap-ed in class was the meaning of “Teamwork” for the students. One of them mentioned “the different parts of the systems coming together to function”. Later, when I dropped by the new office to check out the new space (and unexpectedly broke down in front of LH- for the second time, and he mentioned I was a cry baby) one of the things LH reminded me on was the concept of “Team” where you Trust yourself and your members, Make an effort, Take action, and that Miracles will come. I am not so sure if I am a good “Team Player”. I am so used to doing everything by myself and on my own from scratch that when I am needed to be part of a team, I haven’t found that defining moment where I can proudly say “Hey! I’m a good and responsible Team Member!” I still feel detached running someone else’s programme. I still need to learn how to be a good Team Player. I still have a long way to go.
Meeting F, my Junior College classmate (year 2006-2007) for dinner, we talked about other things.
For some reason, when we meet, we always talk about relationships- with family members, with friends, with other people. And today, I shared with her the concept of Soul Mates and Twin Flames, something I learnt from O.
Soul Mates: “Every person in your life….your parents, close friends, romantic relationships, children, bosses etc. are all your soul mates. Soul mates do not necessarily mean that they are “loving” relationships. Our soul mates can be some of our most difficult relationships as they teach us our greatest lessons.”
Twin Flames: “Are soul mates that are exactly like you. Your twin flame is your closest soul extension and can be a very powerful, deeply loving and fulfilling relationship. However, if you don’t love your self then you will not have a compatible relationship with your twin flame. They will mirror every negative program, emotion, feeling and belief you have…..these relationships can be very trying if you have not cleared your negative programs and stepped into self-love, respect and compassion for the self.”
I guess in a way, as much as I am still exploring how to be a responsible team mate, or how to identify and interact with my soul mate and twin flame, I suppose it is always good to always take time and be aware of my own health first, be conscious, be loving, be one with “me”. And from there develop myself to be better than who I was yesterday.
Quoting Foucault (M brought up Foucault today and I cannot figure out where I first learnt of him);
“I don’t feel that it is necessary to know exactly what I am. The main interest in life and work is to become someone else that you were not in the beginning.” ― Michel Foucault.