January baby

Possibly to be updated next few weeks.


This birthday card arrived on 6 Jan 2018.

3 years since I left 350 Singapore, and still receiving birthday cards from the Young NTUC family.

Thank you for taking me in back then, and contributing to my growth.


Went to the Carnival instead of the 100km trek. Bruhhhhhhh.


8 Jan.

Today, my Mum would have been 57 year old.

SYCA had two interviews; one with Lianhe Zaobao, and the other with Youth.sg. The interview questions were different for both. And they were good reflection points for SYCA at this stage right now.


10 Jan

I attended a few events today. And somehow Depression was a common thread across all.

Bernice came back from Tokyo recently and passed me this Happy Meal toy.


12 Jan

It’s K’s birthday today, and I don’t know where he is.

The last time I saw him in person was possibly on 5 Nov when he dropped by CGS fair. Before that he went missing too, and it was by chance I met him on 3 Sep.

I have friends who appear normal in public, but they’re down with various problems. At least I know they’re alive. I don’t know where K is.

And this was the person who was with me when I had to handle shit during my early volunteering years. And who introduced me to Bangkok among other things.

Happy birthday K.


15 Jan to 22 Jan Vacation Responder

Although.. I realise I wrote Mon 23 Jan for this. Heh.


17 Jan

Went cycling roughly 16 km on a Mobike. Not continuous, but still, an achievement considering I’ve not been exercising. Haha.

I’ve been cycling on and off since 29 Dec.


19 Jan

Happy birthday to me!

And I believe in Friday’s being good days, and today it shall be a good day.

Someone from Canada looked through everything quickly. Hi.


Art Oracle reading

My entries is this blog are becoming.. hmm.


Among others, I went to Coda Culture today and S did a tarot card reading for me using “Art Oracles: Creative & Life Inspiration from Great Artists”.

I suppose one could do it this way https://www.artsy.net/article/artsy-editorial-combat-creative-block-life-lessons-famous-artists and talk about: work, life, inspiration.

I had mine done another way and it was part mystical and hilarious as well.


More for myself to read up-

Filippo Marinetti: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Filippo_Tommaso_Marinetti

Vincent Van Gogh: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vincent_van_Gogh

Gustav Klimt: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gustav_Klimt

19 Jan 1989 and Numerology

The other day, I met up with Jen, Tien, and Timmy for dinner.

Among others, I shared what Brenda told me at the Tarot Card reading session, and that it felt aligned with what the two guys at SRRFM read about me.

Jenn shared more stuff about my Life Path and my Birth Date, and I can’t help but resonate with the description.


Calculate Your Life Path https://www.tokenrock.com/numerology/life_path/

Just use the calculator, it’s easier.

Mine is 11.


More about Life Path 11/2 http://astrostyle.com/numerology/master-number-11-2/


More about Life Path http://veastrology.com/lifepath11.html

I kept going “yes yes yes” on this one.


Birth Date 19 http://www.karmakastle.com/Number19.html


And a good reminder by Jen: It’s what you’re born with. Not your destiny!


From the book Star Signs by Linda Goodman.

Since my Birth Date is 19 And my Name Number is 21.

Mama’s 1 year.


8 Jan 1961. 1.45pm.

7 Dec 2016. 8.27pm.


19 Jan 1989. 12.28pm.


It’s 7 Dec 2017 today.

So many things have happened since, I don’t know where to start.

The advocacy stuff is mostly on Facebook.

Personal stuff is verbalized to some friends.


On 3 Dec on Facebook I wrote:

Roughly two weeks ago at a workshop, the speaker was quoting someone else: When the line between work and passion crumbles, only then is life more meaningful.

Last Thursday at Green Drinks I had a Tarot Card reading done, and Brenda shared next year will be a busy year for me (among many things; like.. Lastrina you have a strong character, and will do well in non-commercial spaces.. You’re creative, and I don’t know what or how, you need to explore that. And that I had a life changing moment past two years and my next milestone is in the year 2025.. And like.. I need to go meditate or pray to my God. And all this was said without me sharing anything). Brenda also asked me to pick one of two decks, and from there she selected a card for me; the Speaker card came up- my life’s purpose is to speak. (And on this note; after getting 2 readings done at Singapore Really Really Free Market previously, and getting the Hathor card during the ‘meditation’ session with Ms. Faizah, I really think there is some truth to all these readings, vibes, and Universe thing).

Today in the ferry back to Singapore, Janvie says: You know, we’re never really busy. It’s just that our schedule is fully booked.

👩‍🎤 rocking things out as long as I can 👨‍🎤

How Lastrina’s brain works.

According to Emergenetics in Aug 2012

(Yellow Conceptual 18%,  Red Social 32%, Green Structural 40%, Blue Analytical 10%)


September 2013: In a school assignment.
My MBTI was a ISFP/ISFJ, with equal weight age for P and J.

January 2016: Did a 16Personalities Test.
Your personality type: “The Adventurer”(ISFP-A)
Strength of individual traits: Introverted: 53%, Observant: 63%, Feeling: 61%, Prospecting: 69%, Assertive: 62%.
Role: Explorer
Strategy: Confident Individualism

June 2017: Did a Personality Hacker test.
Concluded as an ISFJ personality.

What does everything put together even mean?

Fun Stuff in Dec 2017

Update. Because. Update.

Facebook is still the best. For advocacy related stuff.

Singapore Youth for Climate Action and #LepakInSG in the news

My SYCA team mate Pamela who is also quoted in the article has a project on going disposables-free in schools that she will be implementing in January 2018. Pamela has achieved some small wins already, and if you know a school or organisation who wishes to be a part of this, contact Pamela directly at XXX

Public Events related to SYCA, #LepakInSG, or Lastrina in general

  • End November to Early December:

SYCA intends to collect feedback from the public for the Public Consultation Paper for Draft Carbon Pricing Bill https://www.reach.gov.sg/participate/public-consultation/ministry-of-the-environment-and-water-resources/energy-and-climate-division/public-consultation-paper-for-draft-carbon-pricing-bill

Technically, anyone can submit feedback online on the REACH website.

SYCA intends to consolidate views from members from the public who may prefer to do it as a collective.

Over the next few days, do look out for updates on the SYCA FB page https://www.facebook.com/sgyouthclimateaction/ for a Google form where you can give this feedback.

SYCA members will also be be attending the Green Drinks Anniversary X on Thu 30 Nov evening, to have conversations with those who wish to chat more. https://www.facebook.com/events/2002187803331099/

Jeremy is co-leading this with Cuifen, and should you have questions, you can contact Jeremy directly at XXX

I’m organising this as part of the Young Southeast Asian Leaders Initiative (YSEALI) #YOUnified week. Free event open to all.

Am featuring 5 speakers under 25 sharing on what actions they’re doing for the environment. The speakers are young. If you are young, old, and any age at heart, just come.

I’ll also be giving updates from my YSEALI regional project, which was ‘birthed’ in Manila last month.

I’m organising this as part of GUILD. Look out for the Peatix registration page soon!

3 out of 4 speakers are more in the humanitarian sector, and our last speaker is a socio-political activist.

When #LepakInSG first started, we only had the online calendar.

Over the past two years, we expanded the team. There’s a team organising the Shopping for Sustainability tour series, and now there is another team organising the IYOR outreach workshops. Our young volunteers are really taking ownership of their projects. Come for the event and see what they are doing.

My Co-Founder Xiang Tian is the overall coordinator for these projects and he can be contacted at XXX

For green events in Singapore in general, check out https://lepakinsg.wordpress.com

You can add in your own events too. Auto-publish within 15 minutes https://lepakinsg.wordpress.com/add-an-event/


If you’re free and interested, do join in these events? Would love to see you there. Feel free to share these public events with your friends too!

And on this note, I hope you begin to wrap up your 2017 with much drive and fulfillment too.

owl day

today a close friend told me that when he sent me the text: how is Philippines (i was there 17-22 oct), he was actually on the verge of committing suicide.

long story short, the regular me as per usual did not reply to a ‘how are you’ or ‘how is’ message, and the regular him knew he wasnt going to get a reply.

and of course long story short he is still alive. and diagnosed with bipolar disorder. among many things. and i found out only cos we met face to face.

just had this thought of the many things that could go wrong with the many times i leave such texts hanging.


on a separate note, this website, well at least the blog portion, is becoming a sad place. i think.

the regular environment/ advocacy posts are always up on facebook. i recently made the conscious effort to make those public.

the one-liners are on twitter. i prefer to speak to myself there too.

All Their Songs


Love Story by Andy Williams

Where do I begin
To tell the story
Of how great a love can be
The sweet love story
That is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start

With her first hello
She gave new meaning
To this empty world of mine
There’ll never be
Another love, another time
She came into my life
And made the living fine
She fills my heart

She fills my heart
With very special things
With angel songs
With wild imaginings
She fills my soul
With so much love
That anywhere I go
I’m never lonely
With her along who could be lonely
I reach for her hand
It’s always there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now
But this much I can say
I know I’ll need her ’till the stars all burn away
And she’ll be there
How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now
But this much I can say
I know I’ll need her ’till the stars all burn away
And she’ll be there


Speak Softly Love by Andy Williams

Speak softly love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words the tender trembling moment start
We’re in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

Wine colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights, when we are one

Speak softly love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours, and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love

Wine colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights, when we are one

Speak softly love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours, and all because
You came into my world with love
So softly love


Moon River by Andy Williams (especially Mum)

Moon river, wider than a mile
I’m crossing you in style some day
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Wherever you’re goin’, I’m goin’ your way

Two drifters, off to see the world
There’s such a lot of world to see
We’re after the same rainbow’s end, waitin’ ’round the bend
My huckleberry friend, moon river, and me

Moon river, wider than a mile
I’m crossin’ you in style some day
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Wherever you’re goin’, I’m goin’ your way

Two drifters, off to see the world
There’s such a lot of world to see
We’re after that same rainbow’s end, waitin’ ’round the
My huckleberry friend, moon river, and me


You Mean Everything to Me by Neil Sadaka

You are the answer to my lonely prayer
You are an angel from above
I was so lonely till you came to me
With the wonder of your love

I don’t know how I ever lived before
You are my life
My destiny
Oh, my darling
I love you so
You mean everything to me

If you should ever, ever go away
There would be lonely tears to cry
The sun above would be never shine again
There would be teardrops in the sky

So hold me close and never let me go
And say our love will always be
Oh, my darling
I love you so
You mean everything to me (you mean everything to me)

So hold me close and never let me go
And say our love will always be
Oh, my darling
I love you so
You mean everything to me

Look into my eyes – you will see
What you mean to me.
Search your heart, search your soul
And when you find me there you’ll search no more.

Don’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for.
You can’t tell me it’s not worth dyin’ for.
You know it’s true:
Everything I do, I do it for you.

Look into your heart – you will find
There’s nothin’ there to hide.
Take me as I am, take my life.
I would give it all, I would sacrifice.

Don’t tell me it’s not worth fightin’ for
I can’t help it, there’s nothin’ I want more
You know it’s true:
Everything I do, I do it for you, oh, yeah.

There’s no love like your love
And no other could give more love.
There’s nowhere unless you’re there
All the time, all the way, yeah.

Look into your heart, baby…

Oh, you can’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for.
I can’t help it, there’s nothin’ I want more.

Yeah, I would fight for you, I’d lie for you,
Walk the wire for you, yeah, I’d die for you.

You know it’s true:
Everything I do, oh, I do it for you.

Everything I do, darling.
You will see it’s true.
You will see it’s true.
Search your heart and your soul
You can’t tell it’s not worth dying for
I’ll be there
I’d walk the fire for you
I’d die for you
Oh, yeah.
I’m going all the time, all the way.

Lovehunters – Sambutlah Kasih

Dad spends his night watching YouTube clips nowadays. Especially Rumah Uya, an Indonesian reality show.
Tonight he listened to songs. And closed his eyes on this one. I watched the clip and never realized Lovehunters, a popular Malay rock group active in the 80s-90s did a live show half naked. Like real rockers. This was during their last show at Esplanade in 2011. 
Dad later shared that a long time ago at a Malay wedding, my Mum requested my Dad sing this song. It came out in late 90s. Not sure when he sang this. He wasn’t too confident but relented and she gave him flowers too.
This song, performance, and new found significance, will be at the back of my mind for while.
Sambutlah Kasih Ku by Lovehunters
Tak pernah ku menduga

Gelora jiwa sesali dada

Aku jatuh dan aku merindu tanpa kepastian

Bagaimanakah nantinya

Aku dapat meyakinkan

Rasa cinta di hatiku

Hanyalah untukmu kekasihku
Mendung dalam sinar matamu

Kenangan duka masa lalu

Tak ku hiraukan panas mentari lagi

Demi cinta kurela menanti

Takkan goyah walau badai kan melanda

Seribu tahun kutetap setia

Lupakanlah dukamu yang silam

Hulur tanganmu sambut kasihku

Mari bersama kita melangkah

Membina cinta abadi

August Updates

Updates from previous blog post

  • 20 Aug: Applied directly to ClimateForce: Antarctica 2018 Expedition. The trip is planned for 27 Feb to 12 Mar 2018
    -> 26 Aug: Got Accepted. I am currently working on fund raising for the trip. Wrote a note on Facebook here.
  • 21 Aug: Applied for YSEALI Summit 2017 happening in Manila Oct 17-22.
    -> Results supposedly out 1 Sep
  • 21 Aug: Applied for CDL E-Generation Challenge 2017.
    -> Top 10 finalist announced 5 Sep. The winner is only announced 3 Nov. (Long story. But can read my FB note above).

Freebies in August

  • 6 Aug: Complimentary tickets from S to watch Jane Goodall. I gave the other one to C.
  • 20 Aug: Complimentary tickets from M to watch Tristram Stuart. This was just a story of kind acts being rewarded. I had earlier received a ticket from GA to go. And S had earlier received a ticket from EG to go. We both didn’t know about it, and separately had passed our tickets to other friends who were interested too- I passed mine to C. A day before the event M contacted to say he had a pair and couldn’t go, and so he passed it to me. I offered it to S, and we were like.. this is the Universe talking right here!
  • 23 Aug: Tickets from M to watch Anthar Agni. I had seen her post saying she couldn’t go, and so I asked for it. I gave the other one to C.
  • 24 Aug: Complimentary tickets from E to watch Kain Chik Dua Mungka. He watched the preview and passed me his event day tickets. I gave the other one to C.
  • 26 Aug: Free seafood box from S. He had contacted me earlier in the month. All I had to do was to review it, and write however I want. I had also requested to visit one of his farms. So I did that, and then had the seafood box. It was good. I have 2 FB updates on this one.

And this is just in addition to all the free food I get from my aunt when I was at my grandma’s place, and when we go out for meals. I lost track of it all.

Job Leads

Things just suddenly took a turn for me this month.

  • 22 Aug: M (different from the above two Ms) asked if I wanted to be her Youth Editor. I have yet to get back to her.
  • 23 Aug: The other M asked me to apply to be a Programme Manager for her organisation
  • 24 Aug: LJ shared something, but I was not familiar with the company and didn’t want to follow up.
  • 26 Aug: J shared her company is looking for an Events person. I liked how it was described and asked to meet her boss next week, before I leave for Malaysia.
  • 28 Aug: Today I met my FA and she suggested something.

Sometimes I feel I am too selective. But then to be fair to myself, I think I know what I want, in terms of preference, and how I see the need to join a company which would be open to having this hippie in it. If not, there’s always the freelancer life.

Stories of Coincidences

  • 24 Aug: Bumped into J and his wife at the shopping mall, and then we realised we live 1km away from each other. // 25 Aug: Bumped into J and his wife at Singapore Night Festival.
  • 24 Aug: I was texting my Singaporean friend now based in Jakarta if we could do breakfast the next day before she goes back to JKT. Separately, my old boss was also texting me to have coffee. Both of them suggested the same place/ and I thought hey, convenience, especially cos it’s one after the other. 25 Aug: Turns out when my old boss came over, he knew who my friend was!
  • 25 Aug: I thought I saw J at Arab Street but didn’t approach her. // 26 Aug: When I met J, we confirmed it was here.

The Tristram Stuart ticket incident was also a coincidence I feel.


Have you ever felt like suddenly things are moving in the right places for you?


I went for a Breathing Circle back on 25 Apr, and to wrap up the session, we picked cards. I forgot what mine was called, but I remember it was about “Abundance”. Ms. Faizah asked me what I thought it meant. And I said I was reminded of rice paddy fields, and the idea of having lots of food. And someone mentioned maybe ‘abundance’ doesn’t always have to mean financial abundance, but abundance of love, and energy as well. And I think partly it’s true. It’s happening.

And then on 10 Jun when I went to Singapore Really Really Free Market and had two readings done (I mentioned it briefly in my post titled “Sparrow”).. One was a tarot card reading, and the other was a calculation based on my birth date. The 2nd guy mentioned something like this would be my ‘slow year’ and I’ll get busy next year. I don’t know but it feels that way too.

On 23 Aug, for whatever reason, I was reminded why I have the “Follow your bliss” quote by Joseph Campbell in my email signature. It was because of this story. I cannot tell you enough how much I believe in this story.

BILL MOYERS: Do you ever have the sense of… being helped by hidden hands?

JOSEPH CAMPBELL: All the time. It is miraculous. I even have a superstition that has grown on me as a result of invisible hands coming all the time – namely, that if you do follow your bliss you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. When you can see that, you begin to meet people who are in your field of bliss, and they open doors to you. I say, follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.



Yet it is important to note that following one’s bliss, as Campbell saw it, isn’t merely a matter of doing whatever you like, and certainly not doing simply as you are told. It is a matter of identifying that pursuit which you are truly passionate about and attempting to give yourself absolutely to it. In so doing, you will find your fullest potential and serve your community to the greatest possible extent.

JOSEPH CAMPBELL: If you follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Wherever you 


Since April, when I started to pray regularly, there is a need to recite the Al-Fatiha verse regularly. It’s a simple Surah, with so much meaning. Always ask for Allah’s guidance.

Credit: Shakir Web Blog